Ended it yesterday!
Honestly I'm coping with it a lot better than I thought I would. I feel like I made a lot of new friends and fun experiences today, and I only thought about A sometimes. I cried yesterday, but it seems like I ran out of tears. Feeling good!

I think I might be sick.
Honestly, I'm a bit worried. I'm torn between not going for it and going for it, so now I'm essentially just confusing myself. I've been a bit paralyzed for a few days thinking about it, and I still haven't gone to a conclusion. I feel so, SO nervous about everything. I've been having issues with my stomach for days.

I feel kinda cooked.
Yesterday I went out with my friends, D and M, and it was really fun. We swam and stuff. We ate pizza and talked about things and had minor inconveniences happen over and over. It was really fun.
But that's not what I want to say.
God, I hope to hell she doesn't see this. I feel like I have to be honest, though.
There's someone in my life who I left because I thought I was hurting them, and stuff. They were really special to me. And I mean, REALLY special. I'm so glad I met them. We haven't talked in a while, but we started talking again pretty recently. And I feel like my feelings are returning. I feel really bad, and I don't want to hurt them again. I wanna just get closer to them and not break their heart or anything. There's a part of me that wishes that they felt the same way about me, but I feel like they're too cautious to let themselves feel that again. I'm scared and worried about this. I don't want to mess things up with A again.

Forgot to do a blog post yesterday. I impulse cut my bangs and it looks really chopped. My mum is REALLY disappointed in me but hey, it's a piece of control. I haven't studied for any of my exams at all and I'm pretty sure I'm completely cooked.

Dude, I had the worst day.
Threw up in the toilet and the toilet water splashed back at me. Got stalked by a pedophile on reddit. Had practice all day and now my limbs are in PAIN.
On the bright side, met a new friend! Check out Guns For Frogs's music, they're genuinely so sweet and talented. Here's the link to their music if you're interested!

I'll be making a choose your own adventure game from scratch! I can't wait to add it to the site.
I also got my grades back, and I surprisingly got a 92.2 average this quarter! Thought I totally failed.

Today was such a packed day!
I went to my psychiatrists and free comic book day. According to my psychiatrist, I'm getting way better!
I got myself a pin of my yume at the comic con. It's Eugene from Phantom Busters, if you're curious.
Also, stay safe on reddit! There was a lot of pedophiles that texted me today. It was a really harrowing experience.

Right now, I'm in a call with my good friend :3 I just woke up from a nap because i got REALLY REALLY TIRED from coding. This blog was her idea!! Everyone say thank you to mysterious secret friend!!